So here's... (long and TMI)

...the update Ive been forgetting to put on. My "date" was an extremely eventful evening. LAO and I ended up having dinner at Sonic fromt he dollar menu because the boys kinda sorta stood us up for the dinner at Eddie's. So we hung out until around 9:30 and then I finally called TWL and told him that we were coming to get him, no questions asked, we'd made plans and I was meeting SOMEONE period. He laughed and LAO drove to where he was hanging at and picked his already drunk behind up. I drove LAO's truck back to Eddie's and then went along with her and TWL to pick up MCS. MCS was kind of distant at first and then the next thing I know we're sitting on the couch all cuddled up watching SPEED tv. Not that Im a big motor head but I like watching sometimes. It can be entertaining and educational. So we hung out until about 2:30 and I edned up driving LAO's truck home and dropping MCS off on my way.

The interesting thing about that night was the fact that MCS took no as an answer even thought he knew he could talk me into giving him a yes. And he chose to meet me rather than go to someone he knew would give him some, hands down. Since then we haven't technically hung out. On Thursday however MCS, TWL, LAO and I ended up goig to Fast Eddy's. It started out as TWL, LAO, TIM & I going to dinner and then to a local bar. {{Side Note: TIM is someone else TWL is trying to set me up with}} MCS shows up at the restaurant and doesnt give me 2 looks once he sees that I'm sitting beside TIM. Then he says he's going to The Bee's and then home. Our little group goes on to the bar and about 20 minutes after being there guess who walks in.... thats right MCS. Can you believe it? I couldn't. I was so stoked. One minute we're cool just chillin there the next thing I know TWL walks up and says oh we're going to Fast Eddy's. I love to dance So Im definately down for anywhere with a dance floor. But first of course we had to go to another of TWL & MCS's friend's house to pre-game. There MCS acts like we're cool and it's all good. We get in the truck to head over to Fast Eddy's and as soon as we get across state lines.. I dont exist. No comments, no looks, nothing.

Im the queen of confusion at this point, well still at this point right now early tuesday morning.

So Im trying not to get my head too far ahead of where everything really is... but TWL acts like Im on the right trac, but MCS acts like I barely exist... so whatev... this can all be so frustrating.



Well.. I have to get back to work now.... Other news to come soon.

Im so pathetic

I cant help but realize how truly transparent I can be. Coke can see right through me and it makes me feel so childish and unprotected. Im trying not to be the crazed person that I once was. And really Im doing much better, its more that I have a friendship with Frenchie that Im not ready to let go to just nothing more than friendship. Im just a real attachment forming girl. Coke said that if I could I would get my hands on French and never let go. But its not true. I would have liked to gotten to know him better, but that doesnt mean that I would have wanted to spend all of my time with him, like he does with his gf or that I would have really wanted to maintain a relationship with a man who can be as high maintenance as French can be. I just would have liked to give it a try. I really didnt mean for anyone at work to find out about going to dinner tomorrow with Eddie , Trey and Leigh Ann but now its too late and Coke think that Im a crazy bitch who can't let go of someone who doesnt want me and I just seem so pathetic... and I can only imagine how this is all coming off to those of you who are reading this and have no clue about female insanity. But really I am quite sane and really I am just trying to be friends with guys that I think are really amazing people and extremely entertaining. and I think that some people may see it as insanity but really Im just grabbing onto the people that tend ot make the most sense to me at the time. And I cant really help it if the people who make sense are the ones that I was hanging out with or the ones that Ive started to have a close friendship bond with.. ARG why does ti have to be so difficult because French has a penis!

I also havent told Jazz or Colie about my date, and I JUST told Vicki so its not like Im just keeping it from French... Im trying not to get to exited about it ebfore anything comes of it. AND NOW im just over thinking all of it. WTFE!!! Im just trying to get myself moving into a positive relationship direction. Im not obsessing, im not attached Im just ready to move on.


Sorry I just had to vent.. if you read through the craziness till now you are truly amazing people.

....Rawr Babes, Rawr....

So the latest and the greatest. Im meeting my counsin's kind of boyfriend's friend on Wednesday. She told me that he drives a big truck.. im totally loving that! I want a big truck, WOOOT!


I added mobile blogging to this blog so I can share WHENEVER I feel it's neccesary. Yay for me, because alot of times I have random things i want to say/share and no one to say/share them with.. so you are the lucky contestants on the luck's gone south! HAHA.

So random update-ness

Im currently 'owned' by 2 guys Coke, who I work with and Simon who lives in Australia. Im definately more sane than i used to be.. im also a little more spastic when it comes to thought processes. but we'll see... I got busy talking to Linda and forgot what I was going to say.. Some thing will NEVER change..


Hasta.